Yep, chapter 7! Hope you like it!
Break Your Little Heart
It's been two years since I've talked to Alex Gaskarth, he broke my heart that night in his room, and I broke his. I think its for the best though, we were young and reckless, didn't know what love was yet. His band, All Time Low, was getting a little more known, not as much as me, I've become really known, its scary at times, and at times I admit I want Alex hear with me to help get past the tough times. I was getting ready for the first tour since the release of my second album, Under My Skin, the show was shockingly at Baltimore, I wonder if he'll be there...
I looked at All Time Low's Myspace, they weren't on tour when I go there, so maybe one of them well show up, I hate to admit but I hope Alex comes to the show, most of my album was somehow connect to the weird relationship we had shared. They had an EP out in stores, I hesitated to buy it but ended up getting it anyways, I smiled when I saw Lullabies on was it, frowned that a song was titled Jasey Rae. When I first listened to the CD, I knew that the song The Girl's a Straight Up Hustler was about me in some way. I went to one of their shows since then, Alex looked emotionless even though he smiled and laughed, he had put up the face that said 'I'm not okay but I'm acting it is' nobody could tell though, it was sad. I was too chicken to go talk to them that day, I know Jack saw me, he smiled and winked at me.
I finally decided I'm going to call Alex, I pulled out my phone and search for him, I hope he didn't change his number, I pushed call on 'Alexlovesya' it rang twice before I heard his voice, it was dull.
I swallowed. I don't think I do it.
"Who is this? Is this some prank call? You better not being recording this," he threatened, but it didn't feel like one.
"No, its not, its me," I hope to god he knows my voice, I heard someone asked who it was, it sounded like a girl.
"Av-Avril?" his voice was shaky, "W-why are you calling?"
Good question, why was I calling?
"I just..." I thought of some lame excuse, I wasn't going to say 'I just wanted to hear your voice and bring back horrible memories,' no, instead I said this, "I just wanted to say that I still think about the possibility of us, together," smooth right? Alex didn't respond, I heard that girl voice again, asking who the fuck he was talking to, "that is if your not already seeing someone...listen, I'm going to be in town in a couple of days for my tour, I have like three days where I'm free, how about we get together to talk, okay?"
"Yeah, um...sure," I shut my phone, I sighed, what was I doing?! I just started going out with Deryck! Why did I just tell Alex I still wanted to be with him! I'm a horrible person! I heard my phone ring, I looked at it, was Alex.
"What the fuck was that?! I thought you didn't...argh! What the fuck, Avril?!" why was he mad? Oh right, because I fucked him over.
"I don't get it! First you want me, then you kissed my best friend! Then you want me, then you leave and go out with this Deryck dude! Then you fucking want me again! Make up your fucking mind!"
I fell to the ground, I couldn't believe how stupid I was, I haven't called him in two or so years, and I expect him to be all happy when I did. Life didn't work like that, and I knew that. I started sobbing. I heard Alex sigh.
"Where are you right now?" he asked, I actually heard him sound worried. Why would he be worried, I thought he hated me, "Avril, when are you coming here?"
"Um... T-t-tomorrow morning..."
"Get here tonight, I don't what you have to do, just get here tonight," the call ended, I can't believe he actually wants to see me. I had called my manager up and he got a flight to Baltimore really fast.
I walked out of the gate and searched the crowd for Alex or anyone in All Time Low. Instead I found someone holding a sign that said 'The one who broke Alex's heart!' it brought tears to my eyes, I walked over to him and took the sign away.
"Ah, its you...come, I'll take you to him,"
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